Yeah, alright I saw a few people were starting blogs. I'm fed up with myspace blogs since they always sound petty and ridiculous. So I figure maybe this will be a little less petty and ridiculous sounding.
What influenced me to start today though, well that is something I can explain.
Even my greatest of friends these days anger me to some magnitude or degree. Last night wasn't fun to me at all. I got high. Whoop Dee fucking Do. Two of my closest friends irritated the shit out of me last night despite my nice trip. Nothing is worse than being high and being angry. It ruins everything. You feel like you want to die inside. Luckily, food was within reach and my attention was diverted.
But looking back, seeing the way they interacted, it made me jealous. Incredibly jealous. Even though there was no substance to their embraces, a meaningless hug seems more real to me than nothing but a deep gaze into those eyes. Those eyes make me fucking melt. I hate everything about people, especially those eyes. Because they make me want something I will never have. They make me want a meaningless hug. I hate meaningless hugs. And somehow, those eyes make me want something I hate. So I hate those eyes. Fuck you, eyes.
First post, probably far from the last.
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